Dear Bloggie..

I haven't  been blogging for such a long long time..

Had been to busy..

FYI, I'm back SINGLE again..

Something very very complicated happened between us..

We broke up, got together again, and broke up again.

It really really is for real this time, and I am sick of relationships.

If you had told me this earlier, I wouldn’t be thinking so hard about what to get for your birthday, or waste my time doing stupid cards for someone, who is now so unimportant in my life.

I hate you.

Why didn’t you tell me all this crap earlier, and why did you choose to have me back, when you were already having this thought in your mind from the beginning??

When we first broke up, I was already prepared for everything and had a steady mind to accept everything that was going to happen next. When you got me back, I was really happy to see you change totally, and I still had some hope towards us.

As time passes, I can see that u returned to whom you were at first, and I really hated it.

Now, I just hate everything you do and say, and everything you gave me. I hate all the hope you gave me, and everything you left behind.

Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if I wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.

P.S. I don't miss him, I miss who I thought he was.

XOXO,

Vivian